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read my profile sign my guestbook Name: jessika Country: United States State: Arizona Metro: Phoenix Birthday: 2/28/1988 Gender: Female Interests: Art Expertise: Art Occupation: Carrabba's. . . Industry: Art Message: message me Website: visit my website Member Since: 2/20/2005

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Wednesday, March 05, 2008

i always seem to find ones like you. free souls. you'll never belong to anyone. and you don't particularly care to. you find a good girl, get her to fall head over heels for you. sacrificing herself. blinding herself to you and your atrocious behavior. your atrocious treatment of her. and go and fuck her up. i know i'm being walked on. fuck you. i'm being walked on. not only are you sleeping around on brianna... but you're sleeping around on me! okay. i don't know that for a fact. but i'm sick and tired of the sketchy behavior. you're out riding you bike? but you can't be home until three? oh really? did you ride your bike all morning and find yourself in the middle of phoenix so it'll take you until three to get home? hmm. i see now. well fuck you. i'm fucking smarter than that. i'm just choosing to ignore it because i know you'll never change. so i keep sacrificing my god damn self. fuck you.

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Monday, October 01, 2007

so restless. i am satisfied with the fact that i only have one problem on my plate. for now. it's been a while since i could say that i honestly only have one problem on my plate. haha. i think i'll say it again. i only have one problem on my plate. i was running a little earlier than usual for school today. well... i missed my first class but i was running on time for my second one. it felt really good to just drive almost the speed limit and be able to walk normally to class. not rushing like crazy and sweating it. i think i need to keep this going. it's better for me. for my own health. haha. i also went to sleep by midnight last night. that was impressive. i think that if juan keeps taking stabs at my religion i'm going to flip out. he keeps just making little digs at it. and i told him that in church we talked about finances and all he had to say was, "how do finances have to do with God?" and i just kept telling him that my church isn't like his church. my church teaches the principals of God and how they can be applied to real life. they are the teachings to make you a whole person. gosh he makes me crazy sometimes. and i read his blog on myspace. he pisses me off because he's screaming out for someone to help him so badly yet he doesn't want to talk about it. he just wants me to know what he's thinking. to know what he needs. yeah right. i prayed for molly today. and jd. it made me feel good. to know that i tried to exalt someone's problems to the higher power. juan wouldn't get that either. we're just different people now. how do you live with that? so i think that my spanish class is not so successful because it is too early in the morning. it's a poor excuse because i always seem to have one. <an excuse> but maybe next semester i'll be sure to not take any classes that start before ten forty. for sure. eleven forty is perfect, but ten forty is do-able at least. i just checked... i have an academic hold from the education advising department. i know it's because of my low GPA... but it should be coming up. so yeah... i'm gonna call them. we'll see. i'm out for now.

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Thursday, September 13, 2007

	i have absolutely nothing to say.
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Friday, July 27, 2007

	Mientras siga viendo tu cara En la cara de la luna Mientras siga escuchando tu voz Entre las olas, entre la espuma Mientras tenga que cambiar la radio de estación Porque cada canción me hable de tí De tí, de tí...
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my heart is fucking breaking.

myheartisfuckingbreaking.

he's started to give me so much.

myheartisfuckingbreaking.

now i'm in trouble for not being home at ten in the morning?

myheartisfuckingbreaking.

fuck. i didn't know it was a crime to wake up early.

myheartisfuckingbreaking.

and now he thinks i'm lying to him.

myheartisfuckingbreaking.

i don't need anyone else.

myheartisfuckingbreaking.

i don't need tons of friends.

myheartisfuckingbreaking.

i don't need loads of excitement.

myheartisfuckingbreaking.

we may be boring together, but i'm so comfortable with him.

myheartisfuckingbreaking.

i'm so happy with him.

myheartisfuckingbreaking.

my heart is fucking breaking.

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